As within, so without.

Hi everyone! This is my first blog from Guwahati. To understand why, please read the blog I published just previous to this one. Finally my own house is beginning to inspire me.

It must be the flowers. My balcony right now is a riot of colours. And a bunch of naughty yellow flowers has a lone flower with a single lilac petal. *mushy smiley*. And then there are red and white and hues of red. The bamboo is flourishing. The curry plant has started sprouting fresh sprigs. It's almost as if all the plants are happy to have me back. Jatin takes care of them mostly, but I often stand just behind the french windows that open into this balcony and send silent thanks to all these lovelies. 

As within so without.

This blog is more of a newsletter to all my well wishers about my current status. Much like business houses that send out periodicals to their stakeholders about how they are doing. I know I tend to suddenly clam into a shell almost on a seasonal basis. I have reasons, and I request you not to be judgemental about them. Some of you know the reasons. Most of you don't. Some things cannot be publicised too much. The only way to cope with some problems is -alone. The only person that can help you is-you yourself. 

Therefore as within, so without. If you can create peace within, the turbulence outside subsides. All the wise say this. When I withdraw into my shell it is to attempt to create this inner peace. Although I do sometimes feel that my plate has been a little more full than others. Is this self pity? Maybe. I don't know. But no one can accuse me of not having my moments of happiness and joy.

So my friends, my boat is still in the middle of a rather turbulent river, and without a proper boatman steering it I cannot say which way it will go with my rational and logical mind. But if it is indeed as within so without, I know all will be well and only those things will happen that are good for me. And this can only happen if I stop reminding myself and everyone else about events of my life. Which is why I occasionally go into periods of stubborn silence. To become within what I want without. I can see this already working. The sad wrinkled greens on my balcony are now happy naughty plants. Objective evidence of a changed without.

I hope this blog answers all of you who have stood by me and have been the reasons for my having reached this far. My friends (old and new), my relatives, my doctors, my colleagues, my bosses, I owe this one to all of you. Love you. Bless you. As within so without.